BYEBYE.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
this would be the last time blogging here, supposedly on the 12th.
bt i wont be free to post it thn. kpin myself busy to nt think so much
suboohlala ends here. like how you ended it in your blog.
12th. A happy start, a sad ending.
it probably the last time blogging abt you.
i shall leave everything intact, nt changing anything in the template
this wil be the sweet memories kept in this blog and in my heart.
To you,
When i first saw you, i was tht shy til i ran away from you.
but you didnt mind, you caught up with me.
now, you'll be going away from you instead,
i was running to catch up w you
bt i have stopped running.
the first hug you gave, made me felt secure, made me long fr more.
and i am glad i had it for a period of time.
its just a period of time bt i enjoyed my best damn life of tis time.
but all good things come to an end, so wht more can i expect.
it was miserably miserable.
flashback of so many things happened.
especially tht time i thought i lost you, tht you went missing and tht it was all my fault tht it happenedand you appeared,
i felt so relieved, i cried on your shoulder, feeling mixed. sad and happy.
you were so significant in my life. you made an impact in it.
i had a good talk with a gd friend.
i feel tht whtever she said made sense.
you dnt knw me well enough to know i hv this temper tht i throw tantrums,
tht i said never mind bt actually i mind and so on
because when we first knew each other, we chatted happily,
everything we did pleased each other,
yes i told you i quarrelled with my mum and ,y bro and all.
i guess you didnt knw hw it was like cos it didnt happen t u.
bt we haven gt to knw another side of us though we know we all hv flaws.
i guess you cant accept all those bad points i had, you cant stand me, you cant tolerate me
but most importantly,
you dnt love me anymore, your heart is not with me, your feelings fr me are gone.
bt she asked me nt to give up this friendship, to know each other better and be there fr you as a friend.
and tht eventually, you might knw, it is me, who was there fr you always.
though it will hurt, thts wht i can do fr someone i love.
i dnt knw, i feel tht i cant cope w it. i cant. though i love you so much, i cant bear seeing my ex as a friend, maybe fr now only.
i'm disappointed, hurt, down. whtever it is.
if my friends werent to scold you,
will you ever wan t make up t me? will you msg me?
will you say all those in those msges?
and the reasons why you wanted me back.
was cos you wan t make things up to me and dnt wan to see me suffer.
and tht if tht was really the reason, why did you even said you love me in the msges.
i told you before, dnt say you love me when u dnt mean it
Yes, i can be fucking hurt, crying like hell, head pain, eyes swollen, nt eating, moody, whtever it can be.
yes i can be suffering but it doesn matter IF you stil loved me, stil had feelings fr me, heart stil w me.
bt no.
tht was your reasons. nthg abt lovin me anymore.
and tht really hit me hard on me, my everything.
and i knw you alr did, deleting me frm friendster and blog.
i used to stereotype bungs,
used to.
cos nw i feel tht, its nt abt the label and whtever shit
its ppl's personality, character and all.
so i'm nt right to even judge you.
i'm sry.
i love you, i put everything in this and this is hw it ended.
bt whtever it is, thks fr being there fr me.
i am nt blogging all this to gain your sympathy.
i'm just tellin you hw i feel, fr the last time.
i loved you, and i wan my loved ones to be happy.
even if you're w someone alr. whtever it is, be happy.
i sincerly mean it here, frm my heart, now.
Take care and all the best Zon.
Labels: i meant every word i said here
7:29 PM
Sunday, March 2, 2008
need my sudoku book now
and pls prescribe me some antacid.
Labels: hard livin my life
11:15 AM
Saturday, March 1, 2008
hope what i'm thinkin is not what it is.
8:04 PM
Hi pong
Ping, why are you so happy?
Oh cos i gt a job!
Oh where?
in the Hospital
I see, let me give a present
Thanks bt why a red marker?!
Oh then you can draw blood.
Apologies closing down my blog fr awhile.
just needed some time alone.
Anyway,
First week of attachment DONE!
Dread myself w attachment and work this week
plus some mind thinking sudoku to help me think hard on numbers and nthg else.
had SHS fr two days, was rather slack.
we camwhore quite a bit, a bit only.
attachment nt as tedious like the first, bt we hv the usual case study and 30medications to do.
something different is we no need to hand up daily reflections every day.
haven done dressing or admission or whtever yet.
its just parameters, more parameters, and maybe cleaning of pampers and all.
nothing much exciting, bt there's a patient w trachea suctioning, rather cool.
oh anf this lecturer, wl. complaint that my uniform was too long and my hair need to be trimmed.
i altered before and i just did my hair. wht she talkin man.
she even told sya to do smthg abt his face. wth.
kk whtever,
went out w Dear today,
went to Bugis and i gt caught by saki and jennifer.
they were shock of hw i wore. say must buy 4d today.
lame man, so Young up close today cos he was hosting the step up 2 thing
love the step up 2 theme song pls! NICEE.
watched the competition for awhile.
and i went hm early.
lucky din get caught in the jam.
cos my sis's bf is caught there now
haz, me, fatin on the mouth in health zone, hpb.
haz,me,feisay,fatin,von
haz!!
clique without ain ):
haz, me, fatin
haz loves milk!
me and haz
haz again eh
sya! loves tuna
tht's us again
banu, sara, von, me, vin at juying pri sch, lib
von, fatin, feisay
tug!
food pyramid!
PASTA
things happen for a reason,
to either say we weren't meant for each other
or its a steppin stone fr our relationship to get stronger.
well i guess its the second choice,
you caught me at the right time.
I love you F.
Labels: dnt let me go again
7:48 PM
Friday, February 22, 2008
check the spelling out man
Dear doing tattoo eh
nicee
like ah beng seh
ouch, xin tong can
km and me
me and karmun
wht seh
nice effect right
wth
crazy ppl ! :p
haz wht are u doing?!
ain ! sabo by us and fish and co ppl man, she stood on the chair, w a clown hat and sparkles! and we sang her bday song! (:
her oreo cheesecake
oohlala
at fish and co
me,ain,sya
nice,
omg time to get a hair cut eh.
cuties
sis sold stuffs here. on the heart
seat 94, just realised i only stayed all the way on fr only one paper,
broken specs, thks to ...
exams over, like finally, well i din go out or celebrate or smth,
bt went out before exams end, to celebrate ain and Dear's bdays
went to work, and great saki was waiting fr me to come so she can go off to jpt to work.
so i worked alone, :/ so boring, no jennifer, no vanecia, ahh ): , no you.
so i "begged" V to come down and she actually said cannot, bt in the end she did!
(: bt fr awhile only.
thn hpy surprisingly came, one min she said she gt violin, next min she was there alr.
she was there til i closed shop and we went to eat supper.
Thks Hpy, was great catching up w you. (:
i'm so silly to react tht way, i'm sry. really.
thk gdness it struck through me before i was abt to let u go.
thk gdness it struck through me before i was abt to let u go.
i hope tis wont ever happen again,
i love you, truly do,
i'd take up challenges just to fight fr my true love.
thks MARIE FR DOLLING ME UP THT DAY! U ROCK! :D
Labels: more than words
10:39 PM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MY LOVELIEST!
MAY YOU HAVE A DAMN NICE DAY!
i love you like no one else do, like no one else knows, like no else one can. love you Super Hubby (:
Labels: i'll never stop lovin you love
12:03 AM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
i'm super uber sad ):
Labels: feel like crying
9:57 PM